Late call, kept pain

this is the first time i feel sorry ...
this is the first time i have felt regret on all the things i have done
this is the first time i realize how easy was my life back then
i had all the chance in the world ...
but still i remain silent
i remained focused on thing that are not important
i remain focused on what i fell, not what i had to do for her to feel ...
i remain stupid...
i remain numb, numb of all the signs and things she'd done...
i am fool
i am idiot
i am stupid
but why now?
why now?
I'm a hundred miles from you
I'm a thousand leagues away
why now?
now that you have already found love
now that you are already happy
now that you are gone
the feeling of defeat i felt
the feeling of regret i felt
the feeling that i have wasted my time on guarding our friendship...
friendship is it?
hardship is it?
or are you just a partner for laughter?
i love you ...
i love you more than you could ever imagine...
i love you, but it's too late....