Just a thought

I am the reason for my own demise

This facade, my disguise

Now i think it could be wise

If I start living and end these lies

Bunga

Noon Ako'y isang bunga

ubod ng tamis

ubod ng ganda

dumaan ang mga dekada

dumaan ang bagyo

nalaglag ako sa lupa

walang lakas na bumalik

wlang lakas na tumakbo

nakita ko ang mundo sa ibaba

madumi, malungkot, malayo

malayo sa aking hangin

malayo sa aking araw

malayo sa mata ng karamihan

inapakan ako at nadurog

gumulong pa layo

malayo sa lupang aking nililingon mula sa itaas

Ngayon ako'y nabubulok

Ngayon ako'y basura

nilalangaw sa umaga

dinadaga sa gabi

walang araw na di ko ninais na maging bunga ulit

ako'y nakalimutan na

ako'y wala na

sa aking huling oras ako'y sumasamo

sa may kapal na may gawa ng lahat

nais kong mabuhay sa isang mundong

magkakabit ang lupa at langit

nais kong mabuhay sa mundong

walang mataas at walang mababa

nais ko sanang maibsan

ang sakit ng aking pagbagsak

Tinabunan siya ng lupa

Naglaho sa mundong ibabaw

Ngunit isang araw

Ang halaman ay tumubo

Lumago at Yumabong

Naabot nya ang langit

Habang nakatapak sa lupa

Tumanda siya at nagkabunga

ilan sa mga bunga ang babagsak?

ilan sa mga bunga ang kakanin?

ilan sa mga bunga ang magiging puno?

ilan sa mga bunga ang hindi na muling tutubo?

its been a while

playing with time, i was
wasting my life, i am
seeking for none, am i
running alone, was i

rich as they say, i was
blessed with luck, i am
gifted by faith, am i
programmed to succeed, was i

forge in logic, i was
enforce with talent, i am
empty like a can, am i
a face of face, was i

passing by, she was
strolling with smile, she is
a love in the past, is she
broke my heart, was she

the reason of sorrow, she was
immortalized my fantasy, she is
a star i cant reach, is she
the past forgotten, was she

looking at each other, we were
suprised by chance, we are
tested by karma, are we
showing a mask, were we

i conversed
she answered
we blink
we parted
i bid farewell
she said goodbye

the only thing i kept
as she turned away
my stare
my wanting
my heart
because...
its been a while....

chaos : head

words are chaos
created by my mind's delusions
the earth, the world, my life
are part of thing
the world i build
the life i live
the feet that stand on this ground
they are all fake
everywhere we see things
these things are the basis of our living
food to eat
clothes to wear
things to do
these things creates an illusion of wants and needs
do we really want them?
are they really created for us?
do we really have to go with the fucking flow!!
everywhere people judge us on how we look
how we act
how we stare
have it ever crossed your freaking mind
does this people judge themselves
are they credible enough
are they the creators of who we are
are they the almighty creator that creates us
my point is that every thing we want is just what other people want
what we want is just another business for them to sell
what we want is just another poster that needs our attention
what we really want is something that makes us get closer to this " reality"
reality is just a simple word. mind you!
reality is something we touch, we feel, we taste and the most important experience
so if we a really are living in a reality we have to experience what they experience
hence everyone has a different thought about this freaking reality
so may i ask you reading mind
is what you wear a part of your own reality?
or is it another fake reality created by an important donor of reality?
is reality even the right kind of word to use for your daily life?
robotic reality, programmed reality and even controlled reality?
you decide...
because the gibberish might even unlock the spark insanity through the mind's eye....

friends

at first it was too awkward to talk
we were strangers, we were no one
we stare at each and every one's faces
we are the same we are a like

it was a stupid twist of faith
we started talking, we started laughing
we share each and every one's trait
we build not just conversation but a bond

times were tough, times were tests
we stood up together, we held each other
we fight, we brawl, and we shout
we got mad at each other

but the ties that bond us together pulled us back
we run away from each other
we got Rochette back to each other's place
we were not just friends, we were family

now that time makes his twist
we said good bye to each other
we cried, we hugged and bid everyone farewell
we moved forward because we cant move back

but etched in my heart, my brain and my personality
a moment that can never happen again
a moment that i can never ever forget
a moment that changed my life forever...

Hurt

"Hurt keeps you from moving forward, so forgive yourself"- Fr. Griffin

i forgive you for honestly rejecting me
i forgive you for manipulating me as puppet
i forgive you for treating me like a weakling
i forgive you for ruining my life
i forgive you for lying
i forgive you for battering me continuosly
i forgive you for pushing me to the edge
i forgive you for stabbing me behind my back
i forgive you eventhought i know its not worth it
i forgive you to set me free

a letter to myself

dear Mr. (state your name)

i know you from top to bottom. you always used reason to keep you from reality. you always used fantasy to escape the fact that you are just weak. yes you are weak because you can't take load of your heart out. the hatred, the despair and the doubts. its ruining your life. open your eyes to the world possibilities. the world is a new rpg to play with. its a new story for a new anime series. its a sweet story made by you, the mangaka of your own destiny. so please open the door to your secluded heart and embrace the wonders of the life. enjoy! try new stuff. its easy to read this cheesy letter while sitting in front of your monitor. have a hope, think about yourself. life is not a story that consist of a hero and a place or a period. it must have a plot. to show your viewers the magic of you as a writer...